There was a day last month when I put my LO to bed (I'll call her CB) and came out of her room to find remnants of her all over the house. It made me smile. To me it was just sweet little evidence that our home has been blessed with a little angel to play here and bring new life into our family.
But more recently, today I sat CB on the floor with some toys while I practiced piano. She was being unusually quiet and good...I thought I was being blessed to be able to get in some good practice time because I had been kinda praying for it. I've missed it. Every time I looked back she was quietly playing with something. I thought to myself, "Ha..all those moms that say it's time to worry when your child goes quiet. My daughter is just being good." Well life went on as normal all day. Tonight I was kneeling on the floor next to our plants, looking at them. Then I noticed one of them tipped over on the floor under the table. I hadn't seen it because it blends in with both the table and the carpet. There was dirt all over the place and the plant was no longer in the little pot. I think she ate it. It was parsley. My DH and I just laughed.
Oft times I feel that motherhood is a race. A race between me and who I want to be. Sometimes I fly ahead, most times I'm racing to catch up. Like chasing my shadow though, I can chase all day only to turn around when the sun is setting and realize that while I can never catch my shadow, I can also never detach from it. It's a part of me and always will be unless I leave the light. So here's to chasing motherliness, and here's to realizing that at the end of the day my best is best enough.
Monday, March 14, 2011
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Taking a Break
Tonight I'm procrastinating. I'm procrastinating the sink full of dirty dishes, the dishwasher full of clean dishes, and the clutter that needs to be picked up. I feel thoroughly exhausted. It is still early but I could fall asleep for the night. That would be rather lovely actually. But tomorrow is Sunday and I want things to be nice in the morning so I suppose I'd better buck up and get my work done. If I hurry maybe I can still go to bed early. :)
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